Meghan's maybe blog

The season of fall represents change. The trees fall, and in spring they'll come back. A lot of change has been happening lately. The start of school. People are practicing for Christmas recitals and musicals. Change.

Due to this change, I have looked at things, dug into the old, deep files of my computer. I saw me as a kid. There were lots of pictures of myself. I remeber how fascinated I was with my DSi, and when ever I was bored I'd take funny pictures. There are probably thousand of these taking up most of my hard drive. I found pictures from a weekend Girl Scout camp. a fourty minute video of me getting ready for cotillion that my mum wants to watch because she was out of town. Pictures of me in an airport when I was eight with this boy my age who was staying in the same hotel as us that was also at the same airport. I saw "vlogs I did in 6th grade that I probably intended to edit and post on here. I saw a video telling my friend to eat a pixie stick on camera, just because I gave it to him. It's nice to see that I've changed musicaly, spiritually, intellectually, and personally.

Just because I've changed, it doesn't mean I'm perfect, far from it. I still have things I want to change about myself. I can still be too childish, with petty arguments that I get too worked up about and sometimes being a little bit dramatic and emotional. I still feel uncomfortable in my own body sometimes. I'm human, but I'm the same one I was a year ago. I listen to Fall Out Boy now. I'm taking the ACT in the spring. Things are not how they were. I want to get back into a child hood love of theater (for those who don't know I did a play and acting camps as a kid, but never figured about how to audition for things until recently).

Change is enevitable. It can be scary. It happens to everyone. The only thing we can do is pray.