Meghan's maybe blog

It's been almost two years since I have even thought of this website, today also happens to be the day of my first job. Time is something often taken for granted. Honestly, last time I spoke my most concern was cotillion, but after highschool I was suddenly worried about finals, grades, and I actually cared what I got on the state testing. While I didn't have finals in middle school, I still had grades and testing, I just passed them because I found my classes easy, while this year I'm studying to take my ACT. Going back to the first job thing, I was helping little 1-2 year olds while their moms did an activity. This small job reminded me I used to be this way, saying I "hided" behind the thing in the play room, having some of the worst grammar ever (this can also be compared to my blog a couple of years ago, I obviously couldn't type), and nothing worried me. My concerns then were things like getting down the slide before we left and winning hide and go seek. Today I have school, ACT, church missions, praise band, auditions at the local community theatre (I did a play and a ton of acting camps as a kid and I want to do it again), piano, and a ton of other things. I find with more resposablity comes more procrastination. Right now I'm supposed to finding dinner on Pinterest and/or doing my study guide for biology. Instead of worrying more on my ACT, I worry if I can improve my aim enough so I can actually be decent at paintball/laser tag. The silly little things. I don't worry about my messy room too much, but if my book ends well. Who cares about the bathroom needing cleaning? Bethany Mota is on Dancing with the Stars, and speaking of tv, I'm behind on Once Upon a Time. While this is not a good practice, it's still something I do. When Jane Eyre was young she had a best friend that acted this way, I'm very glad I do not go to their school, as I would always be in trouble for forgetting and procrastinating. Time is something we take for granted. I obviously do it by procrastinating. We antcipate the amount of time before something, without thinking about the time imbetween. We think. "Oh, I can play Candy Crush for a few minutes," and you loose track of time, and you don't even care because you feel that it's "just time."