Meghan's maybe blog

The season of fall represents change. The trees fall, and in spring they'll come back. A lot of change has been happening lately. The start of school. People are practicing for Christmas recitals and musicals. Change.

Due to this change, I have looked at things, dug into the old, deep files of my computer. I saw me as a kid. There were lots of pictures of myself. I remeber how fascinated I was with my DSi, and when ever I was bored I'd take funny pictures. There are probably thousand of these taking up most of my hard drive. I found pictures from a weekend Girl Scout camp. a fourty minute video of me getting ready for cotillion that my mum wants to watch because she was out of town. Pictures of me in an airport when I was eight with this boy my age who was staying in the same hotel as us that was also at the same airport. I saw "vlogs I did in 6th grade that I probably intended to edit and post on here. I saw a video telling my friend to eat a pixie stick on camera, just because I gave it to him. It's nice to see that I've changed musicaly, spiritually, intellectually, and personally.

Just because I've changed, it doesn't mean I'm perfect, far from it. I still have things I want to change about myself. I can still be too childish, with petty arguments that I get too worked up about and sometimes being a little bit dramatic and emotional. I still feel uncomfortable in my own body sometimes. I'm human, but I'm the same one I was a year ago. I listen to Fall Out Boy now. I'm taking the ACT in the spring. Things are not how they were. I want to get back into a child hood love of theater (for those who don't know I did a play and acting camps as a kid, but never figured about how to audition for things until recently).

Change is enevitable. It can be scary. It happens to everyone. The only thing we can do is pray.

It's been almost two years since I have even thought of this website, today also happens to be the day of my first job. Time is something often taken for granted. Honestly, last time I spoke my most concern was cotillion, but after highschool I was suddenly worried about finals, grades, and I actually cared what I got on the state testing. While I didn't have finals in middle school, I still had grades and testing, I just passed them because I found my classes easy, while this year I'm studying to take my ACT. Going back to the first job thing, I was helping little 1-2 year olds while their moms did an activity. This small job reminded me I used to be this way, saying I "hided" behind the thing in the play room, having some of the worst grammar ever (this can also be compared to my blog a couple of years ago, I obviously couldn't type), and nothing worried me. My concerns then were things like getting down the slide before we left and winning hide and go seek. Today I have school, ACT, church missions, praise band, auditions at the local community theatre (I did a play and a ton of acting camps as a kid and I want to do it again), piano, and a ton of other things. I find with more resposablity comes more procrastination. Right now I'm supposed to finding dinner on Pinterest and/or doing my study guide for biology. Instead of worrying more on my ACT, I worry if I can improve my aim enough so I can actually be decent at paintball/laser tag. The silly little things. I don't worry about my messy room too much, but if my book ends well. Who cares about the bathroom needing cleaning? Bethany Mota is on Dancing with the Stars, and speaking of tv, I'm behind on Once Upon a Time. While this is not a good practice, it's still something I do. When Jane Eyre was young she had a best friend that acted this way, I'm very glad I do not go to their school, as I would always be in trouble for forgetting and procrastinating. Time is something we take for granted. I obviously do it by procrastinating. We antcipate the amount of time before something, without thinking about the time imbetween. We think. "Oh, I can play Candy Crush for a few minutes," and you loose track of time, and you don't even care because you feel that it's "just time." 

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im bloging cause im bored so honestly dont ask if theres anything random in here, cause honestly most likely that is going to happen... a lot... like a lot alot...  okay so i havent been on here in a little more than a month so actually not much has happen so you just wasted 5 seconds of you life... oh well. im gonna start a book and  write it on my blog. 

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im working on 2 video projects. one should be up by next week. the other by Febuary. if i make the first one, its just bonus points.

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have you noticed my TRANSTIONS and like stairs like this:

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well theres like stars and stuff but you get the picture.

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hey guys so i havent been on here in forever and so let me catch you up:

right now i am watching Macbarbie07's live stream for her birthday, writing her a letter, planing for cotillion (which is on Sunday)

so umm cottilion if you dont know what it is its a class where you learn classic dance and manners. I have my dress and shoes and tomorrow im getting jewelry and my clutch and OMG I MAY BE GETTING T. SWIFTS NEW PERFUME ENCHANTED!!!!!! :)you know not that im excited or anything....

byyyyyyeeeee

so tht video... not poted YET, it will soon. srry i hvnt been on here n 4evr! im just so busy!!!

TTYLXOX!!!!:)

--PINKL8

hey guys!

i know i havent been on here in 4evr! but lemme tell u why:ive been making videos! in fact im gonna post one right now! 

TTYLXOX!!

~Pinkl8

WHERE IS FRIDAY? I NEED FRIDAY! kk so heres this week:

MONDAY: ppl pester me to vte 4 them for the dance to bring $10 so i vte 100

TUESDAY: only brought $1 for my friend, who , sadly didn't win. im going to post a video tht he's in (the intro, there waz a dance off i video taped), sprained ankle with 1 inch heels

WENDSDAY: sick updated this website

THURSDAY:got all make up work done

FRIDAY:WHERE R U?!?!?!?!?!?!

TGIF=

T-Thank

G-Goodness

I- It's

F- Friday

!- !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

k so the valintine dance is coming up and in my 3rd period there r 3 guys {burger+fries! jk!} who all won their class nominie for the king for the dance on Vallintines Day. dosent really suprise me, they're awesomefriends. one has a youtube. i video is glitches in games for DELL XP, one on him "beating up" (not really} his cousin. and one of him getting beat up and hit in the face by an exersize ball!

www.youtube.com/zachsuman57

kk so my dad is very funny. and all my friends that have met him say so. he jokes infantity times a day!!!  

-- pinkl8